I used to have really bad ones, but I’m doing well now. I had a terrible episode yesterday where I stayed in bed all day and cried. It’s weird because during those periods, I’ll feel god awful but once I’m done and over with it, it feels like nothing happened at all. I’m trying to be a better person, a happier person.
I know what that feels like. There have been days where I’ve just stayed hidden under my blankets all day and I don’t want to leave. *hugs for Cassie*
This bodes true for most things in my life and is especially true when it comes to friendships. I really value the fact that I can be so honest and open with my close friends and it’s something I really appreciate. I take spending time with a smaller group of friends over huge group activities any day. At least I can hear what everyone else is saying!
There’s this issue you’re not allowed to discuss: that women are needy. Men can go for longer, more happily, without women. That’s the truth. We don’t, as little boys, play at being married - we try to avoid it for as long as possible. Meanwhile women are out there hunting for husbands.
The world is vastly counted in favour of men at every level - except if you live in a civilised country and you’re sort of educated and middle-class, because then you’re almost certainly junior in your relationship and in a state of permanent, crippled apology. Your preferences are routinely mocked. There’s a huge, unfortunate lack of respect for anything male.
My start with fighting games stereotypically stems from starting to play with my ex. One afternoon while at his house, I discovered a copy of Soul Calibur 2 and asked him if the game was any good. He then proceeded to tell me that he used to play it competitively and placed top 12 at EVO 2004. I was rather taken aback with this information and decided to challenge him to a round of matches just to see what would happen. Mind you, I’ve always been a gamer but before this, I never really played any fighting games.
Long story short, I lost and wanted to learn how to play so I could eventually beat him in a FT5. When SCIV came out, we both started to play competitively and be active in the fighting game community in Toronto. Unfortunately, I still haven’t bested him yet haha.
Riding a Greyhound at night through rural Ontario is really peaceful. So is riding the VIA rail past all these cottages and farms.
I don’t usually get out of Toronto very much. My GTA experience is generally limited to Scarborough/Markham/Downtown Toronto. The few times that I have ventured out of the GTA has either been to Beaverton, ON (where my grandparents are buried) and to Muskoka/cottage country.
Part of the reason I haven’t travelled very much on my own is because of my anxiety. To give an example, only in the past 2 years have I been able to learn to comfortable travel around Toronto on the TTC alone without feeling anxious. So I feel a little pride in knowing that I adventured around western Ontario without a problem this weekend. I have also at this moment come to the realization that I was travelling for 5 1/2 hours yesterday. That’s ridiculous. A culmination of the TTC and 2 Greyhound buses because I made a stopover to play some SCIV.
I think the most interesting part of my adventure was feeling like a squatter. My friend that I stayed with is moving houses and it happened that the day I arrived was coincidentally the day they moved all the furniture out. So we made blanket forts on the floor and had a good time of it anyway. I was a little disappointed that we couldn’t cook together but there will always be other hang outs. (However I doubt that I will be coming back to Western Ontario any time soon). I can’t really justify the spontaneous travelling expense.
How you may ask? Well I am officially finishing college this week and I’ve been hired part-time for a month at the Toronto Botanical Gardens so that’s my justification!
I had a rather lengthy day because I had to trek downtown to pick up a painting from one of the artist’s who was part of my event The Glass Factory and deliver it to my campus along with my externship evaluation form. Afterwards I met up with Alex and I killed time with him before he started training for work.
The best part of the day however, was lunch at Pizzeria Libretto. I’ve heard rave reviews about this restaurant and I’ve been dying to try it out so this was my lunch splurge for today:
Canadian cheese tasting
Duck confit and bosc pear pizza
Affogato (a shot of espresso poured over vanilla gelato)